You have the lowest self esteem and the foggiest mirror.

I went to the store with my mom today and we got a bunch of food and stuff :3 Our house actually looks alive today. A lot of people say "why do you love my house? its so small and not as amazing as yours." well, my house may be big but the bad thing about having a big house is that it feels empty. Little houses have so much things in it and so many memories where as our house has no memories since we just got this house but it actually did feel alive today. I got this really pretty white orchid. I named her gorgeous because she really is.

^ She's pretty, I know.

After not eating sweets for 2 weeks, I lost 5 pounds. Its funny because it doesnt feel like ive lost any weight at all. But im really happy. I don;t think I could have resisted temptation without God though. If I was doing this for myself, I would have failed a long time ago but I havent because im doing it for him, I guess. I do feel like ive gotten closer to him and this makes me a lot more happier. <3

Ive had a couple doubt about Jon lately. Not only do I not wanna be way into him because im scared but also we are extreamly different. I read my horoscope and our compatibility and it said that we might be a good couple at first but it will get boring soon because we won't have a spark and I think that is exactly what will happen. It scary how my horoscopes are always usually right. Not only this but i dont know.. I really want to be with a girl. I think I may just like him because of his comfort and I feel that he is a really good friend and I do wanna be there for him but I dont think I really want a relationship with him. I want to be with a girl so badly. I wish I was attractive enough for one.