I dont think i'm able to put what I feel into words. Today was my birthday. Why I thought it wasnt going to be horrible like the others, I dont know.
There are days when I really want to die and that's all I ever think about. There are days when I really want to start cutting again and if I see a razor, im probably going to use it. Today is one of those days. Ive actually been having a lot of those days lately.
ugh Mikalani. I like him so much but I always feel so awkward and not good enough and just stupid around him. I don't even want to try anymore because its so hard.
I've missed you so much. I'm glad you are in my life again because I need you now more than ever. Im kind of scared that the paper I turned in for English might have been a little too personal. I was crying while writing it. If she asks, ill tell her that its fiction.
I came home and cried my eyes out. After I was done, my dad asked me to come help do something. Neither of my parents told me happy birthday today.
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